home from home

I arrived back in Edinburgh a couple of weeks ago now. It's my final semester of uni and it's actually going...really slowly! Which is a good sign, I've managed to keep track of my work load and get a lot done. More than I thought I would. This final film I'm currently animating is turning out to be one of my favourite projects I've worked on and I'm really happy about that. I've not been overthinking life things recently and it's really working out for me in terms of feeling better about myself and my work.

('Dock' by Brett Helquist for ASOUE:The Wide Window)

I've also been watching A Series of Unfortunate Events on Netflix and I absolutely love it. I've read the books (which I have a hard time remembering, especially after number 10) and watched the film (I actually really liked the gothic direction which the film takes) and I'm just so pleased such a fun and weird story is being told episodically. Its a very heavy mix of absurdity and dark humour, but mainly just a lot of fun. The CGI looks a little uncanny valley sometimes, especially when it comes to the baby (who is ADORABLE) but I like to think it adds to the bizarre setting.

And finally, heres a playlist I've been listening to recently whilst drawing. The cat on the first album caught my eye and then sent me into a never-ending spiral of weird and wonderful music in the depths of youtube.

too many humans

So, HEY 2017. Fancy seeing you here! Lets just push 2016 aside for a while. We can bring it up another day. Instead, because this is MY blog, I wanna talk about me. I woke up feeling pretty good about how I looked this morning. Usually I avoid looking at myself in the mirror body wise but whilst I've been home for christmas I've had the full length mirror in my bedroom to greet me every morning. (I have one in Edinburgh but it's not at a useful distance, I have to sorta squat in front of it.) Last night I just stood and had a long look at me and the marks on my skin and my tattoos and my body hair and the too much fat in places. And I felt really good about it. Not cringing like usual. I think I might actually be learning to love myself. If I keep this up till 2018 then thats a resolution complete.

I don't really have anymore resolutions except: 1) ask a doctor what this weird lump on my arm is and 2) make my final year film something to be proud of. Other than that I'm just gonna float on by and hope for the best.

Coming home from Leeds something about the sunset just felt so nostalgic. Not sure if thats the right word, but it had that "everythings so small, you're gonna be alright" feeling. Julia messaged the flat to alert us about the Moon and Venus being visibly side by side. All in all, a very pretty sky.